Oh good heaven's!!!

So the scale moved today! In the wrong dam direction!!! WTH??!! I know I feel all bloated and yucky so I'm sure it's a PMS related thing, but still!!! :o(   To go from 211.8 up to 213.2 was heartbreaking to see. Gonna keep plugging along no matter what but this scale really needs to start being nice already!

same shit...different day

Except that I was finally able to go to the bathroom! Good heavens I was starting to feel horrible. I haven't had any heart pounding and dizziness issues today either. At least not yet so I'm hopeful that I won't. I did a mini ball workout yesterday which felt good. I didn't want to go all out with it because I have to work and I didn't want to be really sore. I am only pleasantly sore today so I did good. I worked out again today. I will need to get heavier weights soon. I don't know what happened to my 10 pound weights. Well I will worry about that when the time comes. Now it's time to go figure out what I'm going to wear to work and make a dinner to take with me.

sigh...

Ok so my scale is being a total asshole! I just can't believe how hard it is for me to lose weight with this thyroid condition! You'd think the medication would help, but no such luck. Well no matter how bad I want to, I won't give up. I will never beat this if I keep giving up or letting things get in my way. I have to just plug along and keep at it. I don't see how the scale isn't moving, but whatever, it has to at some point. The pants I wore to work tonight were swimming on me so it's working. I guess I just have to accept the fact that it isn't going to happen over night no matter how hard I work. I finally got around to making cheese cake today and it was horrible. Not sure what went wrong but YUCK!! I'll probably try to make it again tomorrow if I have time. I feel like an epic failure this week. I'm so tired and I can't seem to get the bare necessities done. I hate that. All the rest of the week I work until midnight so it's only going to get harder and I don't have a day off until Monday. Well it's almost 1:30am so I guess I should finish up my computer stuff and get to bed.

sammmmme weight!!

For yet another day I am the same weight so this morning I decided to take my measurements. I've lost an inch off of my chest, and inch off of my waist, a half in off my hips, a half an inch off my right bicep, half an inch off my my right forearm and an inch and a half off of my thigh!! That's pretty cool!! I'm off today which is my only day off this week. Unfortunately I have to do all protein today. It kills me because I know I have cream of broccoli soup in there that I'd love to eat!! But I want the scale to move so protein it is! I need to run to the store today and see if I can find an exercise ball already!! I really want to start doing my ball workout again.

I made an omelet for breakfast

lunch I made crepes with oat bran, wheat bran, greek yogurt and egg. It made 3 but I only ate one. I rolled up my turkey and cheese in it and sliced it up like I would if it were in a tortilla.

I took my vitamin with my lunch (I bought more of the kind I've been taking that don't make me sick) and so far so good! Guess my stomach just can't handle the other brand while I"m dieting.

frustrated!!!

Ok I have been at the same exact dam weight for 3 days now and I have hardly eaten anything!! Grrrrrrr..... I remember doing the same thing years ago on Nutrisystem. I would only lose weight around the time I had my period and that was all the weight I would lose for the whole month. Sigh.....it was torture sometimes and it is torture now!! I am soooo sick of seeing 211.8!! I was hoping I'd hop on there this morning and get to see 209 or something! Ah well, I know it will happen in time. I work today so I know I'll be running around a lot, it's still frustrating as hell though!! I want this weight gone and I want it gone now!!! Yeah I'm not real patient! It would be great to be able to lose like 2 pounds a day. LOL! Well one can wish right?! Well I'm not due to start my period for about 2 weeks so I better not stay at the same weight that long!

Well this is going to be a crazy week! I have to work all week and try to get the kids ready for school. We have to get this doctor mess figured out with Jonathan so he can get his physical and go to school. Sigh....stress is not good for weight loss!! Now I have to try to get myself in a better frame of mind before I go to work. It's going to be a lonnnnnnnnggggg day today! I just hope Jackie doesn't call out because I really don't want to be stuck up there by myself after 7 or 8. Must keep thoughts positive!!!

Off today!

I think this may be one of the first times I'm actually off on a Saturday! I put in to have it off and I have to say it's wonderful!! Of course I slept half the dam day but that's the norm these days. I will have to change my sleep habits though because school starts again soon.

Well much to my dismay my weight was the same this morning. 211.8. I know it's better than a gain, especially since yesterday was a veggie day, but I barely ate anything and I ran around work a lot so I got a lot of exercise in. I do need to do my measurements though. I don't figure I need to do them more than once a week or so. I have to remind myself that my weight is not going to change every day. If that were the case then I'd be at my goal weight really quickly! Well I guess it's time to get busy!!

Oh my! I think I've pinned down what occasionally makes me throw up out of the blue! I did it again this morning and it seems to be my vitamins. I changed brands because they were out of mine and instead of waiting until after I ate to take them, I took them because I knew I was going to eat a little bit later and figured it would be ok. NOT!! Within a few minutes of taking them I knew I was going to throw up and had to literally run to the bathroom. It sucked because I had nothing else in my stomach except for a little iced tea. So now I finally just got through eating for the first time today and it's after 3!! Sigh......ah well, it is what it is. I made an omelet but didn't eat it because I got too full from the cream of broccoli soup that I made and ate a cup of first. 

Veggie day!!!

Yahoooo!! It's veggie day! But first things first......I was down a total of 6.4 pounds as of this morning! I now have 43.8 pounds to go. Gosh that seems so daunting but I'm just gonna take it step by step and day by day. I have 159 days in this phase of the program. I'm setting my my first major goal at getting below 200. I have 11.8 pounds to go to get there and I know I can do it!!


OMG I finally ate! It was silly but there was just so much more of a choice of what I could eat that I couldn't decide what to eat! I ended up making an omelet with ham, 75% ff sharp cheddar cheese and veggies. I finally got to use a yummy zucchini that I've been dying to eat, as well as some roasted red peppers, onion, and mushrooms. Absolute heaven!! I also sliced a tomato and ate that. I'm stuffed! Now I need to figure out what I'm going to make to take to work. I also need to make something with the oat bran. Maybe I'll make a oat bar or something. I remember seeing a recipe for something like that somewhere.

Last day of attack phase!!!

Yahhhhooooo!! I'm so happy that tomorrow I can have some veggies! I was only down .2 pounds this morning so so far that makes a total of 5.4 pounds lost. I was slotted to lose 5.76 by tomorrow morning so we shall see if those last few tenths go. I honestly thought I would be down more than .2 this morning but I'm not going to let it get to me. The fact is a loss is a loss and at least it's not a gain! I work tonight so I'll probably be running around a lot as well and that should help. It's 1pm and I'm just now eating! I finally made one of my favorites, the turkey and cheese mini bites! They are just as good as I remember too! I need to figure out what I can take to eat at work tonight. The turkey and cheese roll ups are always nice. I also have a roasted chicken breast in the fridge too though. I'll figure it out later.

day 6 of attack

Kinda down today and not totally sure why. The scale moved a little (.6) so that brought me up to 5.2 pounds lost so I'm happy about that. I think eating the meatloaf I made for the family is slowing me down. I still haven't eaten today but since it's almost noon I really need to eat something. Last night one of my bosses was really upset so I came home and decided to make her some cupcakes to cheer her up. I went to the store and got the stuff and baked them and took them to her. It was nice to see her smile and be happy. I finally got to sleep around 3am or so. I was proud that I made them and didn't eat so much as a crumb. Today I want to make some home made cheez-its but those won't be hard to resist because I don't like cheese crackers. Maybe cooking a little will cheer me up. Or maybe I should go take a shower. After I eat I will decide. I got some wheat bran last night so I can bulk up my oat bran items. Maybe make a little cheese bread or something. I wish I had some turkey bacon or turkey sausage. Or maybe some turkey and cheese minis would hit the spot. Well off to do something. I need to get my ass outta this funky mood. I hate when I feel like this!!!

Ok so technically it's tomorrow because it's 2am but I have so much trouble with my sleeping patterns lately. I tried to go to sleep when David did around 11 but I just couldn't fall asleep and I remembered that I forgot to log in my food for dinner in my weight tracker program, so here I am. I did really well with food today and I hope I drank enough. I"m hoping for a scale movement tomorrow. Tomorrow is my last day of the attack phase thank god! I'm really ready for some veggies to change things up a bit! I'm just so determined to get out of the 200's once and for all! For my own sanity, I must do it!!! I have not seen anything below 200 in years and dam it I'm ready! I tried on a pair of jeans today that I never thought I'd wear again and they fit, but with a muffin top so I won't be wearing them in public until the muffin top is gone! I have no idea where the rest of my jeans are. Probably packed away in storage or in the attic. I wonder how long it will take before anyone at work notices that I'm losing weight. Probably at least a couple weeks if not a few weeks. People don't tend to pay much attention to other people. Hopefully I can get a new workout ball tomorrow since I can't seem to find mine anywhere. My store doesn't have any so maybe I'll hop over to Kmart and see if they have one in the 75cm that I want. I actually look forward to working out with the ball and hand weights again. Hopefully I won't fall off the dam thing this time!! I do look forward to the toning up that they provide though. Well now it's almost 2:30am and I really need to try to get some sleep since I have to work tomorrow.

Back at it again!

I totally forgot about this blog! Well I started back on Dukan on Friday August 10th, 2012. I sure hope I can see this through this time because it really works so well. Now that I'm a CSM at work and I have a locker, it's a bit easier to bring in food. I'm finally past the cravings of the sweets and the chips but I can't wait to get to eat veggies again! I'm on day 5 of a 7 day attack phase. I've lost 4.6 pounds so far. This morning was no change from yesterday but I'm not really worried about it. I just hope the weight loss continues. I found a new diet tracker program that I like so I can keep track of everything. I figure it will help if I get stuck along the way which I always do. Then I can look back and see where I can make changes. Well time to go shower to get ready for work.