Last day of attack phase!!!

Yahhhhooooo!! I'm so happy that tomorrow I can have some veggies! I was only down .2 pounds this morning so so far that makes a total of 5.4 pounds lost. I was slotted to lose 5.76 by tomorrow morning so we shall see if those last few tenths go. I honestly thought I would be down more than .2 this morning but I'm not going to let it get to me. The fact is a loss is a loss and at least it's not a gain! I work tonight so I'll probably be running around a lot as well and that should help. It's 1pm and I'm just now eating! I finally made one of my favorites, the turkey and cheese mini bites! They are just as good as I remember too! I need to figure out what I can take to eat at work tonight. The turkey and cheese roll ups are always nice. I also have a roasted chicken breast in the fridge too though. I'll figure it out later.

day 6 of attack

Kinda down today and not totally sure why. The scale moved a little (.6) so that brought me up to 5.2 pounds lost so I'm happy about that. I think eating the meatloaf I made for the family is slowing me down. I still haven't eaten today but since it's almost noon I really need to eat something. Last night one of my bosses was really upset so I came home and decided to make her some cupcakes to cheer her up. I went to the store and got the stuff and baked them and took them to her. It was nice to see her smile and be happy. I finally got to sleep around 3am or so. I was proud that I made them and didn't eat so much as a crumb. Today I want to make some home made cheez-its but those won't be hard to resist because I don't like cheese crackers. Maybe cooking a little will cheer me up. Or maybe I should go take a shower. After I eat I will decide. I got some wheat bran last night so I can bulk up my oat bran items. Maybe make a little cheese bread or something. I wish I had some turkey bacon or turkey sausage. Or maybe some turkey and cheese minis would hit the spot. Well off to do something. I need to get my ass outta this funky mood. I hate when I feel like this!!!

Ok so technically it's tomorrow because it's 2am but I have so much trouble with my sleeping patterns lately. I tried to go to sleep when David did around 11 but I just couldn't fall asleep and I remembered that I forgot to log in my food for dinner in my weight tracker program, so here I am. I did really well with food today and I hope I drank enough. I"m hoping for a scale movement tomorrow. Tomorrow is my last day of the attack phase thank god! I'm really ready for some veggies to change things up a bit! I'm just so determined to get out of the 200's once and for all! For my own sanity, I must do it!!! I have not seen anything below 200 in years and dam it I'm ready! I tried on a pair of jeans today that I never thought I'd wear again and they fit, but with a muffin top so I won't be wearing them in public until the muffin top is gone! I have no idea where the rest of my jeans are. Probably packed away in storage or in the attic. I wonder how long it will take before anyone at work notices that I'm losing weight. Probably at least a couple weeks if not a few weeks. People don't tend to pay much attention to other people. Hopefully I can get a new workout ball tomorrow since I can't seem to find mine anywhere. My store doesn't have any so maybe I'll hop over to Kmart and see if they have one in the 75cm that I want. I actually look forward to working out with the ball and hand weights again. Hopefully I won't fall off the dam thing this time!! I do look forward to the toning up that they provide though. Well now it's almost 2:30am and I really need to try to get some sleep since I have to work tomorrow.

Back at it again!

I totally forgot about this blog! Well I started back on Dukan on Friday August 10th, 2012. I sure hope I can see this through this time because it really works so well. Now that I'm a CSM at work and I have a locker, it's a bit easier to bring in food. I'm finally past the cravings of the sweets and the chips but I can't wait to get to eat veggies again! I'm on day 5 of a 7 day attack phase. I've lost 4.6 pounds so far. This morning was no change from yesterday but I'm not really worried about it. I just hope the weight loss continues. I found a new diet tracker program that I like so I can keep track of everything. I figure it will help if I get stuck along the way which I always do. Then I can look back and see where I can make changes. Well time to go shower to get ready for work.

Back again!! Feb 1st. 2012

Well hell if I would have stuck this out the first time then I"d be at my goal weight by now. The job really threw me for a loop, BUT now I have no excuse so I'm going to get back on the bandwagon once again. I managed to gain back 13 pounds that I had lost, but I hope to see those gone soon enough! I hope to start tomorrow because I need to get some oat bran. I seem to be having a hard time finding it this time! I'm hoping that they have it at GNC. If not then I will have to order it online and that will set me back even farther!

Thursday 9-15

WOW this week just flew by! I'm off tomorrow!! Yayyy!! It's nice to have that rest up time, but I can't believe how much I love my job! I'm doing pretty good at it too which really helps!! Everyone has been nice for the most part and I love my managers. Even though times are really tough at home finacially, I still feel so blessed right now to have a job that I love so much!

Sooo busy!!

It's been a while since I've written but I've been so busy! I got the job at Walmart and it seemed to happen in a whirlwind! I updated application online and 2 days later they called me to come in for an interview a day or so later! I was so happy! I had to do the back ground check and drug screen and a day after that was done they called me and said everything came back and then it was on to the orientation! I've been working ever since. I think today will be my 4th day of working, but I just went on the register for the first time last night. I'm sure I will do much more of that tonight when I go in. The weekend was really tough food wise. I had to work from 8-5 and it was a challenge. I didn't follow the plan, but I did eat healthy and did the best I could. My usual shift will be from 6-11 (or so). That will be much easier to deal with food wise because I can eat dinner before I go to work and then I don't have to eat at all at work. Hopefully I can stay more on track that way. On the upside, I've gotten a ton more exercise over these past few days! That's always a good thing. I will write here as often as I can, but I'm not on the computer as much so it may not be everyday.

Day 53

Fabulous!!!! The scale moved for me today!!!!! What a great way to start a very exciting day!!!!!

Day 52

Well tomorrow is the big day! Emily goes to school and I have a job interview!!! Yahooooooooooooo!!!

Day 50

Today is day 4 of the 7 day attack phase.  I've done really well except last night for some reason I went crazy on a can of honey roasted peanuts!! WTH was I thinking? I dunno, but I was craving them terribly!! So today will be better!!!

Day 49

Well so far so good. This has been day 3 of 7 days of the attack phase. I'm sure missing my veggies but I can do this. I've done good with eating I just haven't had time to get on here quite as much. I really really want a tattoo so I've been doing alot of research and looking into what I'd really like to have done and I've found a few things I want. Now I just have to have the money to do them!! LOL!  I'll try to post some pictures here of ones that I'd like to get, or something similar to them.

The little elephant (last one) would be for my mother in law Jan who passed away. I miss her so much and she collected elephants and also loved 4 leaf clovers so it would be perfect. The little frog I want on my hand and done in purple because he makes me smile. The phoenix I just thought was amazing and I really want that one too. The top 2 are totally me and I can't wait to get them!! I have no idea what these things will cost, but maybe if I get this job then we'll have a little more money to play with and I'll be able to gradually get the ones I want. We shall see! I also want to get one with the kids names on it and thought about something like this but in color and have the kids names put into the ice cream scoops. Of course there would only be 4 scoops since I only have 4 kiddos!

Starting over.... Day 48

Well kind of. I need to get back on track again so yesterday I started another attack phase. Once again for 7 days I will eat nothing but lean protein. So one day down and 6 more to go. Last night was hard. I made cream of baked potato soup and cheddar biscuits and I love them both. I did taste a bite of the biscuit, but that's because I was giving a serving to my neighbor and I had to make sure they were ok.  Yesterday I ate mostly grilled chicken breast and sf ice cream for dessert. Today I think I will make some meatloaves. I don't have any oat bran because I didn't go to the commissary to get any. Well I have a lot to get done today so I guess I should get busy. I can't believe Emily goes back to school on Tuesday!! This summer flew by!!!

Day 46??

I guess it would be day 46 except I've not been good and following the diet 100%. Don't know what got into me, but it needs to stop! I think I'm going to have to do the attack phase again just to get my mind and body back into it. I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost any either and that's almost as bad since I was doing so well. I need to go to the grocery store to get some protein items to make it easier and I've been out of oat bran as well and not been good about eating it when I did have it! So today I will continue on, but I'm going to go into the dukan site and see what it says if I redo my info with my currant weight and see how many days of attack it tells me to do.

Ok well I went in and redid all my info and now it says my real weight is a couple pounds higher than last time but dang it, it tells me 7 days of attack phase again. Sigh.... that 7 days seems soooo long with no veggies!! LOL! Ok, I will go to the store tonight and get what I need to get this back on track again!!! 44 pounds to go! I CAN DO THIS!!!

Breakfast- omelet and turkey bacon

Lunch- hamburger patty and onion rings. (should not have had the onion rings, I totally forgot that today is not a veggie day.)

Dinner- Egg foo young and  jello

Day 41

Today was pretty much a bust. A big hurricane is comming and I'm stressed to the hilt on top of the PMS that's making me want to eat everything under the sun. I did good up until dinner and the next few days won't be much better I"m afraid. We'll see. I'll do my best but with no power it's not going to be easy to eat what I should be eating. Well if it's a total bust then I will just start over with another attack phase when all this passes!

Day 40

I ate a late breakfast today so I was in more of a mood for lunch type foods.

Breakfast- pan seared hamburger patty and 2 hard boiled eggs.

lunch- Chicken breast pan seared and a LCL wedge.

Day 39

Stressing today because of this darn hurricane. I sure hope it's path changes!! It's going to be a tough week no matter what because I'm due to start in a week. I'm starving all the time and I just want to eat eat eat!! If it's not tied down, it's fair game! LOL!! It's easier on the veggie days, which thankfully today is, but I'll get through it. It's only a week and then I won't want to eat anything at all!! Weird how our bodies work sometimes!

Breakfast- 2 slices of ham lunchmeat, 1 LCL cheese wedge divided between the ham and rolled up. I ate them on  heart of romaine leaves. I also had a sliced small tomatoe.

Lunch- Southwestern Chicken Soup (pictured below)

snack- a bowl of sf ice cream. (that stuff is such a weakness but it cuts my sweet tooth)

Dinner- Meatballs from stroganoff, salad and a sliced tomato.

Day 38

Sigh...yesterday was a bit of a tough day. I just keep doing these stupid little cheats that send me on a sugar craving from hell. Yesterday is was peanut butter cookies. I only had one, but does it really matter? For me it doesn't. I know it's not going to kill me on the scale, but that's not the point. For me sugar is my ultimate enemy. When I eat something sugar laden I end up with horrible sugar cravings for at least a week. I know this happens so why the hell do I allow myself to fall into these little traps?! Well I'm doing my best not to give in to anything today. I'm also going to force myself to get on the treadmill today. It is a protein only day.

Breakfast- 2 eggs and one egg white scrambled and turkey bacon

Lunch- pan seared hamburger patty and a hard boiled egg.

Dinner was a big no no. I had a piece of Quiche Lorraine that I made for the family

Day 36

Well it is a protein only day and it's a Saturday. Not a big deal but today I"m going to make some soft pretzels for the family and it's going to be sooo hard not to eat one because I love them!!! Dinner may be even harder to resist though!! I'm going to make home made pasta and get going on my home made pasta sauce. I love this dish soo much. Ah we'll see what happens. I may eat some, I may not. All depends on my mood really. Sometimes I think something is going to be impossible to resist and it ends up being no big deal and vise versa!

Breakfast this morning was an omelet made with 2 eggs and one white, 2 slices of lean ham lunchmeat and ff cheese. Now it's time for lunch and I have no idea what to have. I'm really hungry today though, so I'm going to go make something!

Day 34 & 35

Yesterday was not such a great day food wise. It should have been a protein day but we are broke (well worse than broke, our bank is in the negative) and I'm running out of diet foods that I can eat. So for the week I will have to work with what I have and hope for the best and hope that it doesn't totally derail me. Here's yesterday's food:

Breakfast- scrambled eggs, turkey bacon
Lunch- cream of broccoli soup
Dinner- over fried fish, green beans and mac and cheese

Today I got off to a late start as usual so I did more of a brunch I guess. I had cream of broccoli soup. I wasn't in the mood for breakfast and it was filling so I'm happy! I'll probably eat lunch around 3 or so and dinner, lord knows when!
Lunch- Ate earlier than I expected to! I had some turkey meatballs in fresh tomato sauce. Also had a bit of SF chocolate ice cream.

Day 33

Today was a strange day. I didn't eat until about 11, but as soon as I ate my last turkey and cheese mini bite, I had to run to the toilet to throw up. It really freaked me out because it just came out of no where! I checked all of the stuff that went into what I ate and nothing appeared to be bad so I have no idea what happened or why. After that I was a bit leary to eat. I ate a small sf ice cream cone and kept that down fine, so I then had a cheese stick. Later on at about 4 I had a bowl of cream of broccoli soup. For dinner I did a bit of a take off on what I made the family. I made them chicken ole, but of course I can't have tortillas so I just ate the chicken mixture on some romaine heart leaves.

Day 31 and 32

Gosh I've been bad about posting lately!! Lets see if I can remember what I ate yesterday...

Breakfast- scrambled eggs, sliced tomato and turkey bacon

Lunch- Beef stew

Dinner- deconstructed cabbage rolls! I wanted cabbage rolls but didn't feel like messing with making them, so I cooked up some cabbage, topped it with a hamburger patty that I pan fried and topped that with the same sauce that I put on cabbage rolls. Wasn't the same but it was still pretty tasty!

Dessert was jello

Day 32- Tuesday- Can't decide what I want for breakfast yet. We had to get up really early this morning to take Brandon to work so I'd much rather be able to go back to bed rather than worry about breakfast! I'm getting pretty darn hungry though so I'll figure out something soon enough.